One of the biggest enemies of my fulfillment is a lack of confidence.
Because it paralyzes me.
Once it paralyzes me, lack of confidence bleeds into other areas of my life. Once it paralyzes me, by definition, I cannot move…I cannot grow.
It’s a horrible spiral.
When it hits me, it results in a reluctance to embrace all of who I am…to be content with my rarity…to exercise my unique talents and perspectives.
I’m afraid to write. I’m afraid to speak up. I’m afraid to take risks.
It’s no secret that confidence ebbs and flows for everyone…all the time.
I’ve come to learn I’m ripe for a battle with confidence when I forget to spend ample time reflecting upon the things that amaze me…when I begin comparing my God-given purpose to the God-given purposes of others…when challenges begin feeling like free-falling instead of free-flying.
The best weapon in my battle? Realizing my being isn’t an end-state. My being is a through-state.
Realizing that fulfillment comes from embracing who I am, being content with my rarity and seeing my unique talents and perspectives as tools used to love and care for others.
Because then it’s not about believing in myself. It’s about trust in what is being done through me…whether or not I can see it…and that’s faith.